Today is a saturday, haha! My off day today. Hmm, planning to switch my off day next week to Friday to attend my sister's graduation ceremony. Release of O level's result's date is nearing. Haiz, hope that worse come to worse, I could get an average result at least.. :x Of course, I hope that I could get a good result to enter my long wished course. haha. Hmm, haven't packed my notes for Yong Bin. Gosh, I'm so lazy to even touch it. What a mountain of papers! :/ Well, stayed at home the whole day. Feels so nice hugging my baby reindeer. I miss the person who gave it to me alot. But there's nothing I can do though. haiz. I just miss the times we're happy together. The saddest thing is that you can be normal to even someone you were very angry with but not me. Even if I knew that there's little chance but I don't want to give up because I can't do it. I've tried... All I want is just to be with you happily. Just a simple life together with you each and everyday without worries like how we've started and not like this.. I bet that person won't know anything as I doubt he'll see this. If he would, he would have seen my post in our blog. :/

* Never judge a person by its cover. She may look happy outside but in actual fact, she's crying every night and bleeding inside every single time. *

It's Friday(:

Well, work today is fun as usual. I was late for 5 minutes.. :x just becuase of breakfast. ohh well.. Guess I shall just go work alone and not meet KY anymore.. Somehow, I feel that sometimes I can't communicate very well with her.. I just don't understand the way she thinks. Oh well! Anyway, my assistant team leader is always so nice towards me! (: haha, he always let me go back home earlier than I should. Guess, I just love this job more than ever! Lunch at staff canteen today. Well, I got discount for the food :b MacDonalds is expensive.. :x Plus, I had it for the past few days. Eek... should stop eating Mac for awhile! Went to meet Wei Qiang after work to get my USS ticket. Walk aimlessly around Tampines for while and get Yami yogurt. Trained back and walked home. Suddenly, I just feel like meeting someone. I guess, no one will understands how it feels like. Oh well... Anyway, met Sean and the others to have dinner together. Ended up eating at 9 plus 10... Hungry like crazy. haha. Almost watch a midnight movie with them but end up going back to home to dance with Sister and Kelvin. haha, had a fun time. well, I should sleep earlier nowadays. Lack of sleep.. :x

First day of work!

Today is the first day of work. Finally my airport pass is done! Well, working on shift period. Work was fun. The officers there are friendly and I have a free and easy job. The working environment was nice. The only bad thing was that my break time is only 30 mins everyday. :( Luckily, my officers is nice enough to extend it for me. haha. So happy. I won't even mind working OT everyday. I'm so glad and lucky that all those people I'm working with even at the previous company is all very kind, friendly and nice people. This definitely made my working environment better! ~ Sadly, I can't continue this job after I start studying poly. :x

020113- Sentosa trip and Fluffy's birthday!

It's my Baby Fluffy's birthday! ~ Although he's 5 years old but he still looks like a small little puppy!
Fluffy's mischievous at times and love to bark a lot which kind of irritates the whole family but I still love him lots! He's a treasure and feels like my second brother. Haha, he just seems to understand me and knows when to comfort me :b ! Time passes so quickly... Shall post pictures of him soon! (:

Went Sentosa today. Like, finally I managed to complete something on my wish list. haha! Met Shadame at PRCS bus stop. Saw many people around ISH. Luckily, there's no one I knew. Maybe just that I missed them. Went on to Justacia with Shadame and waited for CY to arrive. Had herbal chicken soup and we left for Sentosa at around 1 plus. Took lots of pictures together and had lots of fun! The only bad thing was I'm so unlucky to be down with flu when I'm out to have fun! :( Oh man... CY even called me "Rudolph"... >< haha, keep sneezing... Better recover by tomorrow as there's work tomorrow! :x Like finally~ My passport pass is done! Had enough of rotting at home. Looking forwrd to a new environment and meeting new people! Well, at least I manage to some sort relax my mind. It feels so nice when the waves hits the sands and my leg. I should do this again sometime when I'm not having flu.. :x Shall posts the pictures on Facebook soon. Feel like changing a new profile picture but the thing is, I just changed it not long ago. haha, oh well! ~ (:


What exactly are you thinking, why can't I just forget everything about you?? :/

A brand new year- 2013!

Spent the last few days at Sean's chalet. I had lots of fun and laughters at the chalet. It was quite different from what I've thought. Was expecting it to be awkward and weird.. Especially I'm not a very sociable kind. However, I enjoyed myself and met lots of new friends. Haha, awesome bunch. Well, count down at the chalet as well. Ended 2012 there. I seemed happy but I'm pretty sure at some point in time, I felt a little down. Well... As said a brand new year, a brand new start. However, somehow I just don't feel a new start. I just wished that in 2013, everything will go on smoothly, my family and friends to be healthy, safe and happy. Of course and for me to change for the better although, I've changed quite a lot ever since... (: Well, last but not least, a happy new year to everyone!

Recent updates! (:

So, it's my birthday on 161012!
I've turned 17 years old! Haha(: what satisfaction? Had awesome celebrations with friends by having lunch at Ehub Hong Kong Streats cafe and Fatfish steam boat at night with my lovely family! It's totally awesome! Although if he is here too, everything would be so perfect... I guess, it'll never happen though.. Well, at least the birthday wish from him made my day too. Was quite surprised..? Though I'm kinda jealous as someone else seems super close to him right now... :/ No point getting upset over it. Well, anyway, I've enjoyed my birthday a lot! I appreciated all the birthday wishes and thankful to Shadame, Chang Yen, Julisa and Rahel for planning an advanced birthday celebration with me due to exams. They really surprise me alot! Glad to meet them in my kind of miserable secondary school life. They light up my mood every single time! (:

Today is 191012.
Went to study with Rachel, CK, Jeremy. KJ was there too, JM joined after. Stomachache the whole day. Didn't know what's wrong with my digestive system recently... Was sick yesterday though. Luckily I got better today to make it for studying! Went to the toilet and when I came back... Guess what? I saw him! :/ Didn't know to be happy or sad. I've been seeing him frequently every single day. At least 2-3 times. Fate, or is it just god playing with me?! Haiz... This whole thing just seemed so weird... :/ Oh well, everything's after os now! 3 more days to O levels! How scary is that? O.o hope vetting turns out well! :D good luck and all the best to those who are taking O's this year! Especially my close and lovely ones! 

I miss you..

The story of us... I miss it alot.. How can you pretend that there's nothing between us at all.. :/ I wish things do get better and when I ask you after O levels if you still want me in your life, the answer is the one I want.. I hope that by then, things are different.. Different in a better and good way.. I really miss and need you with me... :( I miss the old us before. And not by pretending every now and then.. :( I love you... I do hope that you still do, or you've find the feelings back... :/

5/10/12
You messaged me first yesterday. Upon receiving the message, I was surprised and happy. Although you messaged me to notify me that you're not going for tuition, but you asked me about if I knew that there's lesson. At least you care.. Even if it's only school matters. It really brightens my day. At least I know that you still have that tiny bit of care for me. Maybe, by leaving you alone for awhile... It at least makes you think about me.. I just hope that there's more of these.. We managed to chat alittle, and I felt happy and contented because it's been long since we've talked. Maybe you really do care but you refuse to show it to me.. I hope so too. Hope that this is the case and by end of O levels, you'll find the feeling back again.. Because I've really changed and I'm sure you've realized it too. Now that I know about the mistake, I just hope to at least try again so that I can do it better. I have never ever regretted being with you. Not for once at all. Because I didn't treasure you enough. Even if we are unable to get back together again... Then maybe it's because we aren't fated... No one knows about the future. Guess, I'll just let nature take its course. But I really do hope that you can be normal and easy with me like before. I wished that we can interact more like before...
6/10/12
I didn't know why you can just meet me right after class to get your worksheet but you didn't want instead you want to get from me on Monday, the funny thing is on Sunday, we'll see one another in science tuition.. Maybe you just didn't want to let others know that we've interact or I don't know.. I just hope that things do change for the better. Although maybe now.. You still have got feelings for her. It's just hope but I hope it's not wishful thinking only. I hope you realize my change and find back what we've lost or we can just build it again. I'll be waiting. Because apparently, you've stolen my heart before I even knew it. You seem essential in my life now I guess. I just hope that you'll know.. Thanks for brightening my day yesterday. (: it really make me feel the hope again.. Although it may not be true. I hope that by the end of year, it doesn't come crashing down on me.. 

Missing you...

I missed you so much! I can't help it time after time to peek at you. Doubt you know this anyway. Just hope that you don't get the wrong idea from all the rumours going around. I missed you yet I can't do anything about it. All I can do is to look through all our happy memories, all our pictures. I think I somehow regretted why didn't I take more photos with your phone. So that you can have more photos of us to view at. Maybe you won't forget me so easily..? I am however glad that I have your photos with me so that I still can remember you in some ways. I am glad that I have the photos so that when I missed you, at least I still can see the times where we smile through and enjoy with one another. How I hope these few days coincidence is on purpose.. Purposely created by you such that you can see me or otherwise.. How I really hope so. But I don't dare to have that high hope.. You don't seem to care about me anymore.. No matter what, I will wait.. Even if it's disappointments and hurting time and time again.. I just hope that at least in a corner of your heart... There's still a place for me. I still love you and I am sure about it.. I just hope that there's a miracle and a chance for us together again.. I really just wish for it. Like what I've said, you're my want and my need as well. Just that I didn't show you the picture in the past. I should have done so. So that you know how important you are to me.. Just so you know at least... :(

:/

It's the 2nd of october today.. Makes me kind of upset because it's the start of my birthday month.. And I don't think that you'll wish me a happy birthday.. Needless to say giving me present or celebrate with me.. This day used to be very special to both you and me.. But I doubt it is special to you anymore. However, to me.. This date will have a special meaning. Although I'm angry or even hate you, I can't completely. There's still this feeling I have for you.. Even so, I have I pretend I don't care at all. Truly speaking, I do. Guess I couldn't let go and hate you like how others do.. I guess throughout all these while, I've grown to like you even more. Just that I didn't realized it earlier and tell you until now.. Although I think this month will be a disappointing month and most probably you're not even thinking of me for a moment, I still hope that on this special day to me there's something from you. Although today is no longer a special day for you, it is to me. I hope that my wish of us together again will be true.. Hope that this is not just wishful thinking but something that'll happen . I don't need any presents or surprises. All I want is you beside me now and in the future. I really do hope you know this..