I don't know how much longer I can take it. The thought of it scares me and my heart aches hearing those kind of news. I'm scared that what they said was true. I can't help thinking of all sorts of possibilities. I don't know what to do anymore. It seems like I still can't take it. All I can do is wish and hope that it's not like how others told me about. It feels hopeless. I hate it this way.

我的心里一直都有个疑问。人都会有感觉，自己不想被伤害但是却伤害别人。为什么人会那么忍心去伤害一个自己曾经所深爱过的人。付出那么多的感情难道就会完全变得不存在了吗? 如果真是这样，为什么当时要选择开始爱对方? 如果长久的感情可以一瞬间，一天内化为乌有，那么整个相爱的过程还拥有它的意义吗? 那么，起初为什么要多此一举，花那么多心思让对方爱上你? 我不明白这么做的意义。。