I don't know how much longer I can take it. The thought of it scares me and my heart aches hearing those kind of news. I'm scared that what they said was true. I can't help thinking of all sorts of possibilities. I don't know what to do anymore. It seems like I still can't take it. All I can do is wish and hope that it's not like how others told me about. It feels hopeless. I hate it this way.