^^/ :(

Today school was quite alright I guess.
Except that towards the end, I felt like sleeping><
During ending of geography lesson, my stomach begin to hurt lots..
Don't know why.. Gastric/ Cramp? o.O
Tired of school nowadays. 
Lots of things to catch up.
Regret slacking previously..
Might be going out for studies with Sean & others! ^^
Got back geography test today!
I passed, 14/20:D
Although not as good as I expected haha!
Hmm, maths test today.
Didn't manage to finish:/
But at least I tried my best to do whatever I can.
Hope it would be alright:)
Really working hard nowadays:D
Hope that all the tests would be okay.. just don't fail can liao le. 
Don't expect too much from those.

Feeling quite emotional nowadays?
Well, I feel like a silly girl waiting for something that looks like will not happen.
Maybe, just once again.. I expected something from someone again.
The reason for my happiness and as well as being sad..
I couldn't control it.
Checking my phone every minute hoping that there's something from someone.
Guess, it would not happen.
False hopes?
I don't want to think too much about it.
But it just pop out in my head. 
Can't help it.. Seriously:(
Nobody can cheer me up only you I guess..
Seems like it's a hardwork for others.
I really can't stop thinking about you.
Exams are nearing.
I can't and don't want to bear the consequences for these..
I can't afford for these to happen now.
Or else, all my hardwork would go down the drain.
I don't know what to do.
Lost~

:(

:( !
Why must it be like this again?
I don't want myself to be this way.
It's nearing exams..
I can't possibly stay like that for now.
I don't wish to and don't want to!
Every time this happens, I always miss it..
I really scared that I could no longer take it anymore..
Why?
Most importantly, WHAT can I do?
I want it to go away for some time.
I want to run away from this but i can't.
T.T

HUNGRY!!

OMG! It's like 11.25pm & I still haven't had my dinner yet!
Gotta survive till my sister comes back with delicious food! ( excited!! :D)
Yea, and it's friday now:D
Had Geography test on coast today.
Hope I can pass well or maybe not a fail can liao..
Chemistry test fail liao - 7/20 -.-
Totally not enough time luh.
Haiz.. I know how to do but not enough time to think and do it!
Forget it, since I've already prepared to fail the tests.
Thursday is very bad!
Tests are all in a row..
1 MT, 2 Science, 1 Lit..
Think i gonna flung at least 3-.-
sian.. feel stress!!
Okay.. gonna end here.
LOL, bye:D

School nowadays are very tiring!
Gotta use the computer lesser:)
Have been studying very hard now, preparing for exams which are coming soon..
Have been listening in chemistry classes although don't really know what she's talking about..
But, luckily I understand alittle:)
Jiayou!

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LOL! I have just noticed that someone have been copying what I've said.
Guess that some people have no originality:/
Don't you have your own words & ideas to use?
Don't you know how to be original?
Stop copying what I've said before.
And, mind you.
Don't put words in my mouth.
No one heard I say I hated you.
You thought it this way yourself.
If you want to tag along with us, go ahead.
Only that, you will feel awkward in that situation.
So, if you do, this is the consequences from your actions.
Seriously, no one is stopping you.
You got to learn not to blame anyone else when this is your own fault.
I am not as petty as you so I no longer feel ANYTHING towards what had happen.
If you are putting words in my mouth, please have more sense in it & please ensure it to be appropriate.
Of course, best you better not be putting words in others mouth.
It's seriously childish-.-
Seriously, I can tell you. It is very very obvious.
You don't know how I think/feel.
So stop copying me as well as putting it in my mouth-.-

Yahh of course!
I asked from you and you said later. 
Who's the one who is owing who?
You don't even have a single initiative to give it to me & nicely said that you give me personally. 
I no longer need that so I don't care.


Conversation on last Saturday, I have already told you. 
There is not a need to waste time on apologizing to me because no matter what you do now, I will not forgive you. What you have done is too much. 
If you feel stupid, well.. that's the stuff you are doing. I didn't say that you must apologize to me. 
Moreover, I asked you to forget it that there's not a need for an apology anymore.


Get this straight. 
You are not the only one who helped and accompanied me last time. 
Don't make it like as if you are my benefactor and I must forgive you because of this.
Mind you, this are to different things. Moreover, that's in the past!
I thought that you all along hoped for this? Didn't you asked me to get out of your life because i'm a bitch?
Ohhh! wait! I forgot, I'm not even in your life and i'm glad about that!


You don't make it like as if i'm the one who always had problems and you are the one who is cheering me up.
Yahhs, I agreed you did cheer me up a few times but, do you remember something?
It is you who are having a thousand lots of problems and you always find Shadame and I.
We are always the one listening to your problems and stuff, giving you advices.
But? Did you listen? NO.  


Don't you even feel a little awkward digging up the past? 
Just move on.
Didn't you say that you are moving on with your life?
More than enough chances are given to you but you didn't cherish all of them! 
How many more am I suppose to give you? 


Now, it just annoys me if all this goes on.
Stop making yourself as a victim because this all happens due to your petty & insulting character.
Then, stop all this bullshit.
You are right. I will not forgive you.
But, without me as a friend, the others are still your friends provided they treat you as one.
I don't control what they choose so, even if they don't, it's non of my business.


You don't have to ask anyone for help anymore because there is no one else which you can ask for.
All my friends knew what happen now.
Who else do you want to ask for help?
My class? Friends i'm not close to? 
LOL!


Save that effort. Seriously, I can tell you. No one else can help you anymore.
If my closest friend which knows all my stuff can't even convince me to forgive you, no one else can.
I'm not a unreasonable person who will get angry over nothing.
This year, I've changed my attitude and it's no longer like last time.
I don't get mad over small stuffs anymore and I don't blow easily.
People who really know what you have done feels disgusted too.
How do you expect the person who experienced it to feel?


I don't wish to talk about this anymore. 
So, stop bugging me and my friends about this.
They are not your messenger. 
They don't have help you to deliver messages to me.


As for who you want to tell this to, I can't control it too.
Anyway, just like I've said, there will be no more communications made between us.
So there is not a need to hang on to this anymore.
Just move on.

what the hell?!

Which part of ," It's all too late to apologize & stop wasting time on this." Do you not understand?
Stop telling everyone to help you.
You don't deserve another chance get it?
You didn't lose all your friends but only one.
Don't put the blame on me.
You are the one who started all of this.
Don't drag people who are not in the situation in.
Don't try to drag time by not returning the money.
Stop bothering me.
I've told you ONCE and FOR ALL.
I will not accept it. Get it?

Well, it's thursday already. Soon, holidays will be ending and exams next:/
I've spent the last few days playing Bejeweled Blitz and chatting on MSN.
Well, have been using he computer non-stop for the past few days-.-
Planned to study for EOY but.. turns out to be like this..
ohh well.. most probably starting tmrw after my cycling trip with my family:)
Yupp! It's been a long time since we cycled together.. 
Hope that we really could cycle together tomorrow =D 
& of coz, I could study and finish my homework:/

Well, I guess what I have been thinking last time was a mistake..

Or.. I might not really feel this way of you now.

Might be all because of my own thoughts.
But, now. I won't be pinning hopes on these..
Cause, I've gotten what I didn't thought I would have gotten last time round.
Now, I would just try to get away from stuffs like this.
Really.. 

Sep holidays!

Literature, teacher was not here.
Another literature teacher relief the class:/
She read through the text tgt with us-.-
Talk to Shadame till the end of the period.
Went to hall after that.
Recess have been push forward.. 
P.e at 10. Went ISH, played badminton.
Having stomach cramps due to too much laughing coz of Jobie.
Geography only have one period today.
Got back report book today:/
Failed one subject - Geography.
I feel like my Humanities are abit hopeless..
Have been failing it-.-
Guess this September holiday cannot play..
Hope I can study more than playing this time coz, I am disappointed with my results..
Self study messaged sister & mum.
Went central with Liyana, Jobie, Edmund & Julisa to eat lunch.
Back home at 3plus.

Replying>>

Yahh, guess what?
It's really not good enough.
I've made myself clear.
After all those you have done?
Even a " SORRY" face to face is not even good enough.
Moreover, it's through the phone by messaging.
The first time you did it, it's seriously bad enough.
I've thought of forgiving you.
But, guess what?
You did it again.
After twice? I can't bring myself to do so. Coz, it's really BAD enough.
How do you expect me to forget it all now when your "useful" girlfriend came and mess things up even more.
All i was asking is to explain yourself.
Yet, you ALWAYS blow things up.
Now, it's all too late.
You missed your chance.
You continue to be like that, all I can say is good luck to you.


Remember.
You owe me $1.95 which you didn't give me today.
You better don't buy it yourself or you can keep it yourself.
The money still counts and you better pass it to me directly when school reopens.
If I had to take from you, it won't be nice. 
Trust me.

I had enough.

I had enough of you & your girlfriend.
Teach her some manners & to mind her own business.
I had enough of all the insults that both of gave me.
I seriously find it meaningless.
All of these are craps.
Just stop it.
Want me out of your life, fine.
I will.
Once, I made up my mind I really will.
I'm really speechless towards all this.
Just feel like getting out of there.
Immediately.
All of this is not making sense.
whatever you want to say about me.
Heartless, Bitchy.
Fine. Go on.